Feel Trapped?

When your mind is slipping and you know it is but trying to find help has never been in your cards. Which way do you turn? Left down the path you know is wrong? Forward and slowly witness your head spin loose. Or turn right and be out in meds that will numb you till you become addicted to them and that’s that.

I have become a monster and know it. I’ve done things that I regret. I try to be better but on my own my lessons are learned to slowly. But I am figuring it out but to to slow to catch on. My willpower to be better is strong. But I’m afraid it’s to weak to withstand the storm forming in my mind. I’m ready to go.